So, I've decided to share another snippet. I don't think I need to set this up. I think you can find the context of the scene. Enjoy!
“I never got them,” he said, sounded dejected.
“I never heard from you so I thought you didn’t want to see me ever again.”
“That would never happen, Nathan.” She licked
her lower lip, watching him. “I thought about you every day, missed you every
day.”
His eyes darted up for a quick glance, then
back to her hand. “I couldn’t stop thinking of you. God, I’ve missed you.”
“Nathan, I am so sorry.” She couldn’t face him
at all, but if she didn’t say this, it would gnaw at her forever. “I said
something horrible, something I never meant. God, I’d rather tear my own heart
out than hurt you.”
“Justyn, I—”
She whirled away from him, trying to reign in
her frustration. “Please, God, please,” she pleaded, her hands balled in fists against
her stomach. “Tell me what to do. Tell me how to fix this. Tell me how to make
this right. I’m so lost here. Tell me what to do.”
He took her by the shoulders, lifting her gaze
to his. His voice betrayed his own agony, his own tears frozen on his lashes. “Justyn,
I don’t care how old you are. I don’t care about that at all.”
She touched his cheek and he leaned his head
against her palm. “You don’t?”
“No. I just want you. I only want you.”
He bent his head to her, claiming her mouth as
he kissed her hard. She threaded her fingers in his hair and kissed him back
with abandon. One of his hands crept to the small of her back, the other
pressed against her derriere, pulling her tighter against him. Oh my God was the last thing in her mind
as she felt the length of his erection, how much he did want her.
“I
can’t,” he gasped, trying to pull away from her. “I can’t do this.”
She held on, not letting go no matter how hard
he tried. After a few attempts, he just stopped. “Where do you think you’re
going, you beautiful man? I’m not letting you go again.”
“I can’t, my girl, I can’t.”
“Why?” she breathed against his cheek. “Tell me
why. You owe me that. God, Nathan, I want you so badly it hurts inside.”
“Because I can’t,” he answered, turning his
head away from her. “Justyn…. Shit, Justyn, I’ve never been with a woman.
I’m…I’m….”
She let him go, surprised at the admission.
“You’ve never made love with a woman?
Anyone?”
The pink tinge on his cheeks was quite
endearing. “I’m still a virgin, damn it.” With a roll of his eyes, he added,
“I’m not gay, damn it. I keep telling you that and I wish you’d finally believe
me.”
She swallowed the giggle and took his hands in
hers. “I do, my love. I do. It’s just that – you mean to tell me that with all
of those girlfriends you’ve had, all those women from your movies that you’ve
dated, you’ve never slept with any of
them?”
He shook his head, his cheeks still glowing and
getting pinker. “Um, no, I never….”
“You’ve never pleasured yourself?”
“Of course I have,” he grumbled. “I know how to
do that. I just…I don’t know…how to…to….”
“Well, you know how to fix that, don’t you?”
She took him in her arms and raised her face to his. “Besides, it’s not like I
have had that many lovers either, you know.”
He frowned at her. “You’re kidding.”
“Nope.” She kissed
him softly. “I told you two things about me – the first was that I am very much
a one-man-woman.”Well, there is more to that scene. I guess I better get this done so you can find out what happens next.
With love,
Siobhan
